Whose opinion counts

No matter what other people tell me about my running, clothes, body, etc I have my own opinion on it. And their opinion will never be more important than mine. I appreciate feedback and other’s thoughts, I often ask for opinions on certain things. But I never ask for opinions on my body. It doesn’t matter what other people think. How I feel is the deciding factor.

I am on this rant today because my mom told me this morning that I look thin in my running gear. I should have just said thanks and walked away, but I told her I haven’t lost any weight for the wedding. This comment started a big back and forth discussion where she insisted I look thin and I insisted she should make an appointment with the eye doctor.

Fact: No one that is 5″6 and 158 appears thin. I don’t care if you’re dressed in black and wearing heals – that’s just not “thin”.

It’s super frustrating because I almost take the comment as, “This is as good as it gets for you, so just accept it.” And I don’t want to just accept it. I used to be heavier so this isn’t the worst I can look, but let me have some hope that I can get to my goal weight. I am not giving up over here, and I have a long way to go.

Fact: It could be worse.

I agree that it could be worse. I have been heavier, but I have also been thinner. I am making lifestyle changing and learning about my body’s food needs every day. I am moving in the right direction (down).

W/O: Well, that rant was a workout on it’s own, but I also ran 5  slow miles. I was feeling super sluggish today. Could the carb fest from last night be to blame?

Breakfast: oatbran, almond milk, naner, topped with brown sugar, a few dried berries and a little almond butter.

The almond butter is the same color as the oatbran 🙂 I’ve decided this meal is so heavy I feel like I’m going to barf when I’m done. Oatbran is like a brick.

My friend recently commented that she doesn’t know how I am so “good“. Obviously, this is relative because I am very “bad” compared to most bloggers out there. Again, it’s all relative…

But some things are easy for me to do

 – running in the morning (my therapy),

– eating a healthy breakfast (been doing this my whole life)

– eating veggies (love them!)

– not eating meat (never crave it, only eat it if it’s there)

But other things are very hard for me and I’m working on it –

– Not eating after dinner!

– Not eating Ben’s food

– Only eating when I’m hungry

– Learning to stop before I’m stuffed

– Not eating for emotional reasons

Question: What is easy for you? What is hard?