Brooke Hogan

Since I obviously have no problem telling you guys embarrassing things about myself, (like when I eat a doughnut and an ice cream sandwhich because I’m stressed) I thought I will add to the list of things you may judge me on with this: I love Brooke Hogan right now. Isn’t that random? I caught her VH1 show on reruns the other day and discovered I think she’s cool 🙂

For Lunch I used up the last of my open faced grilled cheese cheese. It’s this stuff, only 50 cals a slice. Love it.dscn8271

The main event was a massive salad with: shredded cabbage, carrots, tomatoes, mushrooms, orange bell pepper, peanuts, garbanzo beans and TJ’s Peanut dressing (my all time fave).dscn8272

With that salad I had a piece of Ez bread with cheese and watermelon w/ grapes. dscn8276

This was a very satisfying lunch, but I was a little too full after it. I think my body would have been fine without the fruit addition. My RD wanted me to increase calories of meals, but said I could add them to snack if I was too full. I think a meal time/amount switch is in order because I’ve been overly full after B and L lately.


The First Day

I’ve decided that today is the first day of my healthy weight loss journey. I have learned a  lot over the last few months about my body, cravings, Intuitive Eating and more. Now I am going to put it all in action. I think I have been way too easy on myself and don’t make a big enough effort to stay on track. I really have to suck it up and just stop eating unnecessary foods. Crap Free Week(s) starts today and will continue until I feel like I have a hold on eating random extras!

I took a pic of myself in one of my suits for a before pic. In 51 days I will post an after. Let’s see what I can do by then. I don’t expect to be at my goal weight – 147 – by then, but I will be about 7 less than I am today (WI tomorrow).

W/O: I did not feel like running after eating a ton of junk last night, but this was my last chance run before the half this weekend. 5 miles and then 30 Day Shred Level 1. Meghann mentioned that this is a good thing to do if you’re trying to tone up for an event – hello, wedding. – so, I think I’ll aim to do this 5 days a week until the wedding.

Breakfast:oat bran, naner, almond milk, cinnamon, PB, dollop of cottage cheese with pineapple and strawberries.dscn8267

And I finally got my Road ID! I thought about it after Caitlin posted about it a while back, but it kinda slipped my mind. Last week I remembered and decided to order one right then. I hope it never comes in handy, but I’m glad I have it!dscn8255

Frijoles with Spinach

I had a Very bad. This always happens when I say I am going to entirely cut out certain foods. I guess restricting for so long has built up some resentment with my willpower and it completely fights against me at the first sign of anything resembling a diet. This is especially frustrating because I truly want to lose weight in a healthy way, but I can’t seem to get there.

I love this blog because I feel like I really put myself out there and am completely honest with you all. So, I’m being honest when I say that I ate a huge amount of junk food today, food I don’t even really enjoy that much. I don’t know why, but I couldn’t stop.

I don’t want to rehash it. I will start fresh tomorrow. So I leave you with a new recipe. This is actually a super simple family recipe my Grams used to make when my mom was a kid. Frijoles with spinach – basically you mix up all the ingredients and heat ’em up. But, you obviously should like beans and spinach to like this:)

dscn8230Frijoles con Spinach

2 Tbsp olive oil

2 cups pinto beans (cooked)

1 can spinach (you can use fresh, but this is what Grams used)

1 can diced tomatoes

1 can whole tomatoes

1/2 chopped onion

2 Tbsp minced garlic

salt, pepper, garlic, cayenne

1. Heat oil in pan, add onions and saute. Add minced garlic.

2. Drain spinach well and add to pan with onions

3. Drain both cans of tomatoes and add to pan.

4. Season to taste. Most of these ingredients are very plain on their own and do require a good amount of salt & pepper – add other spices to your liking 🙂

5. Heat thoroughly and enjoy!!!dscn8239

On second thought…

Lunch was open faced grilled cheese with a big carrot, tomatoes and hummus. Yogurt on the side for dessert/dairy. dscn8221

Then, I realized that I love to eat yogurt with some kind of topping. So, I added the “allow-ables” – almonds and raisins. dscn8223

But, I wanted more of the goodies so I grabbed a handful of trailmix I have.dscn8224

So, I realized that it may not be such a good idea to add nuts and dried fruits to my yogurt in place of cereal because they are much higher in calories. I am trying to lose weight here, hello. And since I’m def a volume eater this is dangerous. I’m going to think about a solution to this little problem and figure out a healthy option 🙂

Top it off

Today is my first full day of CFW and I could not decide what to put on my oatbran. My mom bought a container of cottage cheese with pineapple (no HFCS) so I knew that had to be in the mix!dscn8207

The bowl:

~1/3c oat bran

1c almond milk

dash salt


1/2c cottage cheese with pineapple mixed in at the end



TJ’s dried mixed berry blend

crushed pecans

dscn8209Turns out there were too many toppings and I didn’t end up eating most of the PB – that never happens! I think oatbran is more filling than oatmeal as you are actually eating it, but it’s been too long for me to remember if it keeps me full as long.

Amazing Grass Challenge– I forgot to drink it yesterday! Busted. I’ll make a glass of it in a bit when my tummy settles from that huge bowl of oatbran.

The Goods – Here are the swim suits I bought for this summer (2 from Target and one from Marshall’s). Hopefully I’ll post pics of me actually in them from my honeymoon, but I’m not ready for that yet.dscn8215


Q: Do you wear a one piece or two?

I go with the 2 piece despite what my body looks like because I’m young and it might not get any better than what it is now. I won’t regret it later and I should just accept it for what it is. Life is short.

Target is an evil genius

I brought a naner and the last of my Barney Butter for a p.m. snack. I’m both sad and happy that the BB is gone. I was digging into the jar with a spoon/knife/fingers like an addict. No picture because I broke my memory card at work!!!

So after work I stopped at Target to get a new one and ended up walking out of there with 2 bathing suits and a sun dress. I went in for 1 thing!

Note: Trying on bathing suits really reminds you why you need a Crap Free Week 😦

I had to run an errand on lunch and picked a few things (including something for a dinner). When I got back from lunch I broke into this package, but here’s a reenactment. Dried mango from TJ’s – it’s almost as good as fresh mango. dscn8204


Dinner : When I was out on lunch I decided something prepared was in order for dinner since a Target trip after work would mean I wouldn’t get home until after 7pm.  I got shrimp sushi with avocado – made with brown rice. dscn8198

I also dug into the rice and vegetables my mom made for dinner too.dscn8200

Dessert was watermelon and a few strawberries. Seriously, few things make me happier than ripe watermelon. I.LOVE.IT. dscn8203 

I am super excited about Crap Free Week, but I know it’s going to be rough! I know Bobbi said she was on board too 🙂

Crap Free Week

After multiple days of random snacking on crap I’ve decided a Crap Free Week is in order. I got the idea from Caitlin and Chandra, but I did let them know I was copying them 🙂

Crap Free Weeks – 4/28 to 5/14 – 17 days total

Since it takes 14 days to make or break a habit I’m hoping this will give me a great push to create new healthy habits & break old ones. And this challenge conveniently ends the day before Vegas 🙂 I might have to jump back on CFW when I return from all that junk too!

The CFW Plan – Don’t eat crap, it’s actually pretty self-explanatory, but I will elaborate…

Enjoy:Whole Foods – oats, yogurt, lf/ff cheese, beans, eggs, nuts, nut butters, fish, tofu, brown rice, sweet or reg potatoes, and lots of fruits and veggies! Plus 2 slices of (preferably sprouted) whole wheat bread a day.

Avoid:Processed Foods – cereals,  cookies,  crackers, candies, cakes-like stuff, bars (except raw, whole foods bars), alcohol, sugar, artificial sugar, added salts, anything considered crap!

Challenges: My Half Mary is this Sunday & I will fuel up like normal w/ rice & salty food the night before and PB toast that morning. My Bridal Shower is 5/9 and I’ll probably have a glass of wine and some cake. My other biggest challenge is my addiction to frozen yogurt and the hundreds of boxes of cereal in my house!

Ultimately my eats will be based on whole foods, which will allow me to cut out the crap while still getting an adequate amount of calories for energy and happiness 🙂 The extra calories I eat almost always come from processed foods so this will really help me break some bad habits! I will still eat sweetened yogurt since the only way I can eat plain is with a ton of granol-y or Pumpkin Butter.

I realized I needed this CFW after I ate 3 bowls of cereal for breakfast. For some reason I am a cereal eating machine and I never feel full while eating it, but feel like crap afterwards.

Run: 5 miles with a few hills slowly

Breakfast: This new cereal x3. This is when I realized I need to stop eating boxed things in mass quantities. dscn8192


Lunch was a massive salad with shredded cabbage, carrots, tomatoes, mushrooms, peanuts, garbanzo beans and TJ’s PB dressing. I had my last half of a ww english muffin on the side plus grapes and 2 La Croixs. I drink a lot too. dscn8194

My male co-worker saw my salad and then saw that I completely downed it and said, “Damn, that was a big salad. Where did it all go?” because I ate it so fast. Boo.

I didn’t know I was doing Crap Free Week until I got to work and decided to start right then and there, so the english muffin isn’t the best kinda bread, but it’s all I brought. Now I know how to plan